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Compilation 2014​-​2022

by Julian Cartwright

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1.
The Blue Sky 03:31
You can't argue with blue skies. You can't argue with these smart American guys, sun on sprawling summer days when things just go on that way. You can't argue with the course of change in this hysterical exchange, appealing to the worst side of the best man cause he knows you're his biggest fan. You can't argue with flattery. Can't argue with vanity, no way! Or the crisis of conscience at the end of the day. Or the blue, blue sky Or the blue, blue sky You can't argue with kids these days. You can't argue with these power plays because it's just the blue sky, hanging on the question, "Why oh why oh why oh why?" You can't argue with the task at hand, nor with this proud, American man who's directing all the traffic with his strong, decorated hand. It's not like it used to be. Now you can argue with anyone you see and as long as argument's on the table, it might as well be done anonymously in the blue, blue sky in the blue, blue sky You can't argue with policy. Can't argue with the economy, oh no! You are the anomaly, ambivalent, sad and dumb and slow. You can't argue with trails already blazed. No one asked you 'bout the latest craze! Because it's just the blue sky, hanging on the question, "Why oh why oh why oh why?" The blue sky Oh the blue sky
2.
Climbin' up and down the spine of life Climbin' up and down the spine of life Reading the line of music makes me feel more sublime about the ups and downs of life. I'm too sensitive, and I have to make it work. I have to focus on the magic of the earth. A man cannot grow rougher, he'll become a grain of sand. Has to become a lover of the people and the land. Climbin' up and down the spine of life Climbin' up and down the spine of life Reading the line of music makes me feel more sublime about the ups and downs of life. But these fires still reduce my mind to ashes. Still and peaceful is how the phoenix flashes up the spine of life up the spine of life up the spine of life Climbin' up and down the spine of life Climbin' up and down the spine of life Reading the line of music makes me feel more sublime about the ups and downs of life.
3.
Wrong Again 05:15
How it feels when you break your sail in Walden. When your djembe breaks, all fails. A snake's tail grips your body, a snake's tail. How does it feel? How does it feel? Now you know how it feels to fail. And if you feel like you're a failure, you're wrong again, so don't bail. Wrong again Wrong again You don't even know how wrong you've been! How it feels to win the heart's affection cause you took the right action then. But you lost the joy, the joy of the situation like a million other women and men. How does it feel? How does it feel? Now you know how it feels to fail. And if you feel like you're a failure, you're wrong again, so don't bail. Wrong again Wrong again You don't even know how wrong you've been! You're an astronaut, wrong again You're a teacher, wrong again You're a mason, wrong again You're a manager, wrong again You're a healer, wrong again You're a geek, wrong again You're too afraid to public speak, wrong again You're a cheater, wrong again You're a liar, wrong again You want to light the whole building on fire, wrong again You're a saint, wrong again You're a sinner, wrong again You'd rather be 35 pounds thinner, wrong again
4.
Fluorescent 04:11
The same old darkness fell today Leopard licked her spots away The way I want to go fluorescent, The way I want to go fluorescent. A sunless rocket's shot to Mars while we carve hearts on trolley cars. The way I want to go fluorescent, The way I want to go fluorescent. And I'll be the love I want to have in my life. Feeling dumb, just groping closer to light. Buds in April, doves in May take up the mourning of the day The way I want to go fluorescent, The way I want to go fluorescent. You dare to touch the fingertips from which your dear life always slips The way I want to go fluorescent, The way I want to go fluorescent. 'N I said I'll be the love I want to have in my life And feeling numb, I'm barely open to light Jersey skyway sunset blush reflect the madness in the rush The way I want to go fluorescent, The way I want to go fluorescent. Find the kids a moonlit dream Olympic silver, catch the gleam The way I want to go fluorescent, The way I want to go fluorescent. I want to feel the love I want to see in my life Somebody pulled the rug, now I'm slipping day into night, day into night. The same old darkness fell today Leopard licked her spots away The way I want to go fluorescent, The way I want to go fluorescent.
5.
So sure your flame would rise, you spoke to me in charcoal only. We wasted our time, unaware. Then you realized the fire's burning over there. Not inside, yeah Then you realized the fire's burning over there. Not inside, yeah It was something that I didn't have to say, no It was something that was plain as day So sure your flame would rise higher you actually realized the fire's burning over there. Not inside, yeah. It was a tired, tired game to play It was something I didn't have to say. You wanted to start a fire the color of your hair Then you looked around to see the fire's burning over there! Not inside, yeah
6.
No Position 04:11
Happy when I have no position Right up here in the lonely zone. I'm happy when I have no position Down in the ecstasy of truth unknown. Hunkered between your fence and any kind of ground, the sand and flint and ash around your mining town. I could be anywhere you see. The place you're least expecting me to be. Happy when I have no position Right up here in the lonely zone. I'm happy when I have no position Down in the ecstasy of truth unknown. The happiness of the newly free isn't lost on me. This unexplainable thing is all that lets me be happy. And the mirage of the person I could probably be is what keeps me from being free, a little more free. You know I'm Happy when I have no position Right up here in the lonely zone. I'm happy when I have no position Down in the ecstasy of truth unknown.
7.
Indigo 03:48
You hold me by my visage, Indigo You'd have me wear a violet crown Play me through your games with scarred fists, Ah but you're never gonna pin me down. Keep me talkin' till I'm done with talkin' You keep me runnin' till you've won the race Now I'm holdin' up my mirror Now I'm holdin' up my mirror Screen me by my vaccination Know me by my social feeds Run me through your lists and rank me amongst the saints in your throng of thieves. Into fits of pure frustration, I'm sweating like a broker on the phone. Ever since the day you met me, you knew you weren't goin' down alone. But now I'm holdin' up my mirror Now I'm holdin' up my mirror Now I'm holdin' up my mirror Now true colors seem much clearer Now I'm holdin' up my mirror Indigo, Indigo
8.
Just Like Me 03:34
You, you're just like me We both have the same disguise The same people to meet Your eyes, they look right through but they can't see me at all from what I say and what I do. And I totally neglected to consider your point of view. I thought I already knew. And I thought you were so strong, and I thought you were so wrong and I made a big deal when I thought you were either weak or right. You heard me counting sheep and on the third night of losing sleep, that's when you believed that I was beginning to see the light. Cause you, you're just like me. We've got the same pair of eyes on the TV screen. And we still like sharing life by comparing what we've seen.
9.
Sailing the currents, we fail and fold Riverboat gamblers past the age of old No I don't want to play the loser Don't want to Pay the winner, oh no No I don't want to play the loser Don't want to Pay the winner, oh no There's a spare dollar underneath my clothes Two others up my sleeve inside of penny rolls Saved expressly for the bullies The troll's tolls But I don't want to play the loser Don't want to Pay the winner, oh no No I don't want to play the loser Or pay the winner, oh no This is a lawless zone Your dog has got me like a bone I'm looking for my chance to escape No I can't live my life alone But I'm no good for your loan Doing this dance everyday Is second rate But I don't want to play the loser Don't want to Pay the winner, oh no No I don't want to play the loser Or pay the winner, oh no Sailing the currents, we fail and fold Riverboat gamblers past the age of old No I don't want to play the loser Don't want to Pay the winner, oh no No I don't want to play the loser Don't want to Pay the winner, oh no No I don't want to Play the loser Or pay the winner, oh no Don't want to Play the loser Or pay the winner, oh no Don't want to Don't want to Play the loser Or pay the winner, oh no Don't want to Don't want to
10.
Hazy moon, do right by me Shine your light on down, come on and set me free. When I look up there in the sky, you're what I want to see Oh hazy moon, do right by me. You know I am a cheater, you know I am a thief. Kindly offer me succor, a respite however brief. Won't you bathe my heart in your soothing balm Strike your harp, give me peace and calm Hazy moon, put me right there in your palm. Well you've put me through the ringer, stoking my mind's disease. But I know that as you linger, you can reverse my fate with ease. Hazy moon, do right by me Shine your light on down, come on and set me free. When I look up there in the sky, you're what I want to see Oh hazy moon, do right by me.
11.
This whole street is alive Tell me, oh my lord Everyone waits for no one As they live their lives This whole street is alive Tell me, oh my lord Everyone waits for no one As they live their lives You want a house that's modern, hard-earned Filled with joy In a wishful mood You become a peasant You catch yourself without the passion It would take to arrive At this glorious station Well, you catch yourself without the patience But this whole street is alive Tell me, oh my lord Everyone waits for no one as they live their lives This whole street is alive Tell me, oh my lord Why everyone waits for no one as they live their lives Holding down employment, so intense Holding back enjoyment with a fence Your head is filled with lines that form a Property border You'll haunt a Pac-Man machine in Aberdeen For just a quarter But this whole street is alive Tell me, oh my lord Everyone waits for no one As they live their lives Oh, this whole street is alive Tell me, oh my lord Why everyone waits for no one As they live their lives
12.
It's like what you think of your life is closing up So much for that old time stuff The future is rolling The future is rolling up in your broken mind so are you ready for the time of all times? The time of all times There's only one scoop everywhere You found a temporary truth, I don't care. Listen, I would like to see you clear. You don't have to stage yourself or steer. Glowing bodies, glowing minds. Might as well prepare for the time of all times. Glowing bodies, glowing minds. Might as well prepare for the time of all times. The time of all times It's like what you think of your life is closing up So much for that old time stuff The future is rolling The future is rolling up in your broken mind so are you ready for the time of all times? The time of all times The time of all times! Now now now now now now now now now now now now now now now Ready for the time of all times: Now now now now now now now now now now now now now!
13.
Early Hours 03:42
In the early hours, the shapes of things begin to dazzle in a false display, a crosseyed vision you might call magical. And I'm seeing the shape of love It's shaping up to be something special. And I'm seeing the shape of love in every empty vessel. In the early hours, I'm reeling in the wasted feelings. Taking them inside with the jilted brides, it's where they want to be. And the shape of things is dull anyway I can't tell the shapes of feelings. In some crazy world where I could say, you probably wouldn't have faith in hearing. And I'm seeing the shape of love It's shaping up to be something special. And I'm seeing the shape of love in every empty vessel. In the early hours, the early hours It's too late, it's too late, it's too early. In the early hours, the early hours It's too late, it's too late, it's too early.
14.
I'm not afraid of you, in fact you let me through every night of my life and if you'd allow me to, I'd like to say to you, you should have stopped me just once and seen me. Showed yourself so I could see you. We'd be enemies speaking plain in the night. If you want my old age, give my back the pimples on my face. If you want me now, be real. Don't let me lose any sleep. But if you were just hangin' out in the corner of my house, let me say you're a major creep. You've gotta move out before they revoke your grim reaper's lease, your grim reaper's lease.
15.
Space itself has been in love since it was a child, has grown, now it's gettin' older. But can love stretch a million miles, a million miles over? Though you're a million things to me, can land stretch over a million miles of sea? Can I just ask you to be in love's dimension? In love's dimension, once more in love with me. Oh time, time is still in love. In love always, just the same. But can time stretch a million hours every time I call your name? Or is it just standing in the way? Can I call up just to hear you say you'll be in love's dimension? In love's dimension, once more in love with me.
16.
Winds 02:47
Starting my day in a new town I hope the winds of the day whisk me away. Hearing the future on an old clock radio, and I'm cryin' in the silence of the glow. All the gales sweeping through were just the tillers of lands eclipsed from view. The time tables I thought I knew were just arrangements of silver stormin' on the blue. Well I wanted to fly high, and I got charred. To survey the land was a task too hard. In the burning, drying heat summer will slay. But I still believe I'll see the lay of the land one day. Now I'm starting my day in a new town I hope the winds of the day whisk me away. Hearing the future on an old clock radio, and I'm cryin' in the silence of the glow.
17.
Timeless days I really love those timeless days. You know I could sigh for the ways I love them. For all the spineless nights I bowed down with a loveless heart cause I lost faith in the timeless, timeless days. And what I sought, I just couldn't figure out but you know I was saved by the thought of timeless days. Timeless days I really love those timeless days. You know I could sigh for the ways I love them. I only want to live in timeless space, shining timeless light on you, Julia Cause I'm in love even though I never proposed. You are a loving spirit in the air See me now I want to be your pearl-eyed friend in the grass, all for the love of pretend And chasing flies to the top of cloudless skies. The pretty face we kiss only there Timeless days I really love those timeless days. You know I could sigh for the ways I love them.
18.
Droplets 02:32
Droplets, droplets of grace Can I let them Can I let them fall down on me? Cleaning, cleaning the lowest place. Making the ground more and more muddy with grace, droplets of grace. Islands, islands of sound sending out, sounding out their waves all around me So I have stopped sailing round the coasts now that i've found these islands, islands of sound. Barrels, barrels of plans. Building up, building up my expectations. Burdening, burdening my hands. I spend my time catering to my own demands, and to my barrels, barrels of plans. Castles, castles of doubt built on the foundation of what I can do without, lingering, lingering in space. I'm constantly building and building around these castles, castles of doubt. Droplets, droplets of grace. Can I let them, can I let them fall down on me? Reaching, reaching the lowest place. Making my heart and desire resound with grace, droplets of grace.
19.
We're stayin' in a country house where we'll see old friends. We'll try to forget the distance or see it through a different lens. It took hours to drive up, so we can't turn back now. We've got five minutes left to wise up, but I don't know how. We used to spend so much time laughing and joking around. Now it feels like we're driving to a stranger's house, so tightly wound. Am I scared I might make a mistake? Look around, there are so many left to make. I just keep asking myself if my life's complete. Every time I'm supposed to relax, I turn up the heat. Turn up the heat. We ended up talking about zen out in the yard. We all felt like taking it easy cause life is hard. We stayed up late, and sipped till we were soused. And took advantage of a night staying in a country house. We took advantage of a night staying in a country house.
20.
You hang onto me like a businessman, Want me to be what you think I can be. You walk off with me in the setting sun. Want to steal someone, but it could be unreal. You hang onto me like I'm all you need. If you look within, you'd never see me. In the crowded streets, there is a queen. She sits inside your heart, she wears your ring. In the heart on the back of your head, there is a friend. And it is she And it is she You still hang onto me, you still hang onto me, never gonna set you free. You still hang out with me, you still hang around with me. Can't even set you free.
21.
What she asks is a trifle, nothing more: someone to do her bidding like a soldier, or she loves the war. I'm kidding, she loves the bidding war. It's New Years Eve, I'm looking at a picture of Leonard Cohen looking at a picture of a woman with her head turned in the window of a store. And then I'm in the store. And she loves the bidding war. And I follow that car, and I follow that man. Unremitting and alone again. And who's watching me? Well, they are. And they were just some teenagers bored and on the phone again. And as I watched them all grow, I was getting valuable. But they never said when. So will this stranger be a stranger, or will this stranger love me till the end? No Or. . . . Or she loves the question, but friend I know the question hasn't got the heart of a cold war. And she loves. . . . Or I love the question, and just haven't got the heart for the end.
22.
Nightshade 02:37
Nightshade I play, I play your charade. I play your whole charade, looking for escape. Nightshade I say I'll stay and fall in the fray. And fall where I may. Nightshade I pay, I'll play. I'll pay for what you made, believe in what you say till daybreak. Nightshade You see my heart break Monday through Saturday, for heaven's sake. Nightshade I play, I play your charade. I play your whole charade, looking for escape and awake and awake and awake and awake and awake and awake and awake and awake and awake
23.
Despite utopia's golden, godly charms, the people were just waiting for an urgent call to arms. Like a phonograph record playing in their heads. In the runout groove, voices of enemies lying dead. It's like a song to redeem A song to remind me. No matter how it seems, the call to arms is blinding After the fall of America, there was one regret: that the call to arms was rarely ever met with the honest actions of a people rising up. Even though no righteousness ever would have been enough. Oh, it's like a song to redeem, a song to remind me. No matter how it seems, the call to arms is blinding. Like the salt in the sea, like all the fault in me. Like a wind gone sour. You know it's not our finest hour. It's the thrill of might. It's the wrong of right. All at the expense of friends who didn't even want to fight. Oh, it's like a song to redeem, a song to remind me. No matter how it seems, the call to arms is blinding. And those kids drinking beers in your garage, while they may not have a draft to dodge, they're still gearing up for their epic fail. I hope they live to tell their gruesome tale, Oh yeah, this is a song to redeem, a song to remind me. No matter how it seems, the call to arms is blinding.
24.
Mary 05:05
Rolling through the pain of heart, that's how mercy's train starts. And then into the roads. Who knows how far they may go, Mary, Mary. Mary, Mary. Only the rider with no plans can see the hill from the plain's spans or a sun within herself. In truth she can see nothing else. Mary, Mary Mary, Mary The lone creature in ragged frost can feel the grip of pain and loss and how envy binds up the day, he'd never ever want to say Mary, Mary Mary, Mary Cruel hands the anxious hold through tests and crimes untold. But we're learning to let go, to free the fast into the slow. Mary, Mary Mary, Mary Oh let me take my time this way. You can take it as you may. Only you can see the good. Don't rush through things as if you should Mary, Mary Mary, Mary Oh Mary, Mary me Mother of all we need to see. The loving hand reached to this world. The patient shoulder holds the squirrel, through the night, biting and scratching. Mary, Mary Mary, Mary
25.
Holy Weather 04:07
Outside the tent, I am who I am. Out on nowhere's unending stage, the wicked wind is my friend. Not an intruder who pushes in the walls, no solicitor heard making midnight calls. Oh no. By an old volcano, that's where I know peace. Her mother-earthly halo above will slow the beast. Her incantations slip past the common ear. We only know what we thought we heard of what we think we hear. Lake Charles, Superior, Champlain-- all wild on the inside. And here I am in garments, just the same. Holy weather, its warning and discipline rolls and rocks me from my rusted hinge. I'm headed up to North Station by mountain trail. My head is pounding, back bent like a mouse or snail. The chorus of migrations enters in so strong, without an indication of where they've been so long.
26.
I'm feeling what is there I'm feeling just what is there. When I reach out from my heart into thin air, I'm feeling what is there. Staying in the core of my heart, here in the core of my heart. Your emptiness won't tear me apart, it's staying in the core of my heart. No space for leaving, I can't hold it in my mind, You're here when I can hold you all the time. I look to see you approach in a hesitant way, and from this feeling, you gently fade away. And I'm feeling what is there I'm feeling just what is there. When I reach out from my heart into thin air, I'm feeling what is there. No hold on me can stop the release. No inaction can become any less brief. No loving care becomes belief, no regal tree becomes a leaf. And it's easy to get a step ahead. These stepping stones are how our heart is lead. And it's hard to be the tortoise, not the hare. We're quick to bail, and slow to feel what's there. We just go to heal, and then don't feel what's there We just go to heal, and then don't feel what's there
27.
The voice that speaks the truth is the voice that sings Leading our hearts to heaven The voice that speaks the truth is the voice that sings Leading our hearts to heaven The way you enter, I can see you have a style in mind I want to be there when you leave your body behind The voice that speaks the truth is the voice that sings Leading our hearts to heaven The voice that speaks the truth is the voice that sings Leading our hearts to heaven Hallelujah, that's your song You like the verses No one seems to remember But not because it's long Well the voice that speaks the truth is the voice that's Leading our hearts to heaven The voice that speaks the truth is the voice that sings Leading our hearts to heaven Your idea of you is clear My estimation of you, not even near I like you, I'll remember you this way Even though you tell me where I can go today The voice that speaks to you is the voice that sings Leading our hearts to heaven The voice that speaks the truth is the voice that sings Leading our hearts to heaven The voice that sings, oh the voice that sings Is not the one that an angel brings And the voice that shouts with the heart left out Is really not much to write about What to write about? The voice that speaks the truth is the one that's Leading our hearts to heaven The voice that speaks the truth is the terrible voice that's Leading our hearts to heaven
28.
At first glance, he is awkward kind of like sap on a tree. The one who walked through the bleaker snarls, the ones that would kill the darlings. No doubt they would be harmed in his sudden hallways. The population pushing walkers also defers with chattering pearls to the departing of the bleakest one in the world. The bleakest stuff in the world is not around anymore. What happened to the sun to make me miss the bleakest one? And on the far side of town, newspapers are torn, a car door's left open to accommodate the cheapest coffin. The most basic of apartments went unpainted, that is until today. And kids run into his yard in darkness, their chests pounding for fun, not accounting for the passing of the bleakest one. There are no more empty spaces left since the day, it has begun. They were the sole belongings of the bleakest one.
29.
When in the night When in the crowd and you can't tell what dark has done, Look around and time allowed, you might find your answer spun when the moon is freakin' out. It's still the light of the sun. And when the moon is peekin' down It's still the light of the sun. Well, you're my best. You're by my side. I'm at my best when you're in sight. When you're at rest, you're still my best. Are you the source of this moonlight? when the moon is freakin' out. It's still the light of the sun. And when the moon is peekin' down It's still the light of the sun. How could I doubt my own sight? You were always lighting nights. Making sure we're never scared. All the lunatics beware, Cause when the moon is freakin' out. It's still the light of the sun. And when the moon is peekin' down It's still the light of the sun. When I feel you're out of range, every moonbeam causes pain. My going mind twisting blinds and life is just not quite the same. But when I keep you in my mind, your rays make puppets of everything I feel inside. You shine above for my love. For my love. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare

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All songs by Julian Cartwright

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released April 1, 2023

David B Greenberg drums on Tracks 9,10, 11, organ on 10.
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