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The Elegy of Bros

by Julian Cartwright

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1.
Jim Johns writes his name in Magic Marker throws his catch back at the harbor works double shifts at Pizza Hut Tim Johns drinks Swiss Shandy and Carver gets a shave at the barber and his hand and toe tails cut Jim Johns loves grillin’ jelly doughnut fillin’ and he hasn’t had a stint put in yet. Tim Johns takes amoxicillin, the train to work and makes a killin’ and yet he’s still in debt. Jim Johns wears jeans dresses up for Halloween and graduations Tim Johns is lean subscribes to a magazine on dream vacations Jim Johns is an honest guy came home with a black eye when he called another man a moron Tim Johns doesn’t cry hopes his party will find a better country to declare war on Tim’s humor is lean and dry. Jim’s on the other end of the BMI. Tim will likely outlive his wife. And Jim buys a cheap knife. Tim wishes he could win in a duel Jim wants to learn to siphon fuel Tim is just certain about his views Jim doesn’t read the news. Jim Johns leaves work on a Friday night box of Mozzarella bites in the trunk Tim Johns hears opinions from the left or the right, that he feels it’s his right to debunk Jim Johns sits on a jury although he’s in a hurry to get back to work Tim Johns gets up early and he’s prepared but he’s worried always expecting the worst
2.
Making the record was a most holy thing. Vibrating membranes from vibrating strings. The drummer did his tracks in the buff. And the bass was just played off the cuff. It didn’t matter a lot we didn’t practice enough. Old friends, it felt like icing on the cake. We had to be assured that the editing would not sound fake. You did twenty vocal takes. You shower smelled like grapes and the living room was slightly off limits due to construction-- are they ever gonna finish? The sound was bold But we were not completely sold until we popped the compact disc in the car and ripped the roof off the thing with every door ajar.
3.
Beluga Bar 00:47
Will we hear the jukebox play Fleetwood Mac? Or will the old man have a heart attack? Will we take a twist of lime? It has to be worked out each and every time. We’re here at the Beluga Bar, and we think we might be here for the booze. We keep looking around the room for clues, but we’re relieved to eternally lose. I want to sit next to old man McCray. He’s not afraid to pray for nothing. His withered face looks so gay against the gray of human suffering. It’s just a respite from the illusion of decay. And you don’t have to look too far, The old man’s always here at the Beluga Bar.
4.
Easy Rider 00:50
Suede and silver spangles A breathalized belch I’m buying the Harley Davidson museum gift shop pouch. And we’re back on the road, steadily heading south. Not a round trip, but a trip far out. The sky was mauve, and, wearing burlap clothes, I accidentally ate a moth. Next year, the south of France, we’ll see a Visigoth. So far, ten beautiful desert nights. That’s only seven hotel rooms trashed. You must not inflame our passion thus, for our rider is just ginger ale and schnapps! But we won’t think twice to put ourselves on the map for most obnoxious band since K.I.S.S.
5.
Looks like I’m spending the night in this carpeted retreat, only mint spears and ice cubes in my glass. The party broke up early cause the drinking went too fast. I’m drawing a self portrait from reflections on a plate. It had been far too early, now it’s far too late. Enjoying hearing nothing but droplets from the sink, cat slinking round the table where chilled glasses clinked. It was a forced occasion, and I’m not a party man, No wealth, no home, and no date. But I’m doing an amazingly accurate rendering of myself: young, thin, soft, simple, and straight. And I wonder if I could pull off a series of masks. I’ll say I’m working on that, if Kate comes in and asks. Or I could always try to sleep on a gray couch, in a stake-out until morning’s reached.
6.
GSP 00:57
Cruising with my friend in Angie’s van on the Garden State Parkway. Like a banner, the world is free. The world is New Jersey. Cruising down the GSP The cars all dropping stains, shifting, shifting lanes. The roof of the sky with its eye and its long goodbye. Cruising down the GSP I’m not attached to the work of my hands, have no future plans. This place is the world to me, one foot on the gas to go free. Cruising down the GSP The lightning, fog and clouds around the houses, stores, and crowds are a refuge, a delight to me. All I ever see. Cruising down the GSP
7.
Middle Names 00:51
I’m an idea you’re an idea. We’re both ideas in my head. I’m a bottle of vinegar, you’re a slice of bread. You’re a King-size comforter, I’m the nuptial bed. You’re a month-old callous I’m a dullened cross-cut saw. I’m a corrupt district judge, and you’re the law. I’m a hungry alligator, you’re just out of my reach I’m an old timey doctor, you’re a leech. I’m waiting to find the courage to throw out these middle names-- all these nicknames and baggage, all these antique frames. And now I’m burning up the forest where the trees obscured my view, losing my entire purpose for something to do.
8.
Old Friends 00:33
When you moved to Pasadena, I thought it would never last. Now I need someone to help me. You took a plane, I took the bus. I need a friend to last and too much damn rest. Even with all times past you were right back in the mix-- to tell the time, to sleep in shifts, to read the paper through a double thick lens, and to be friends.
9.
You were often mistook for the Clarksdale crook who wrote the book It was entirely hype The time seemed to be ripe for a high-level gripe I left you in Rome to go back home One last calzone You left the tent of youth to pursue the truth of gin and vermouth Now you’re always there in these dreams I’m aware that you just don’t care I want to run away just for a day, you always seem to stay So I watch the balloons from the Imperial Dunes with some macaroons Wait for them to be poked, for poison oak or to choke I got so lonely in that Swiss chalet at Montego Bay, the Ionesco play I’m off my Croquet game and it’s a crying shame I don’t have you to blame I saw the sights, the soirees at night where pretty strangers fight And I’m always surprised when a morning arrives that doesn’t feel like an extension of the night Sometimes I wonder, are you writing your life? I could have been your killer I could have been your wife And I would reply so earnestly if ever you referred to me, I’m addicted to emergency But if ever you decide not to hide You’d be within your rights
10.
Rage Man 00:51
If ever there was a man who needed help This guy who talks to his son like he talks to himself Leaving a rage footprint on his head, on his head. He ruined everyone’s day Never asked if he was ok when his son fell to pieces. Only a man like he could make a trip to the park dark and in the summer he litters all the beaches. And we’re watching you always. As soon as your hand is raised. But we can’t protect your boy from the methods you employ, the rage that you enjoy, you selfish, idiot man. You have no idea how far your rage will span. You’re a rage man.
11.
Underneath the palms is a husky prince, a man who makes friends with his axe. He can be seen in front of Walmart sucking down a Winston mint. To proffer a bottle opener is the highlight of his life. He knows a lot about killing rats. And he definitely cares about sheetrock more than any Joe or Pat, any salesman who’d try to sell you that. In the Walmart he gets a fresh start to the week, buying marshmallows, new car mats, and an adirondack chair, purportedly teak. There’s no debate about the vibrancy he brings, and he always stays up watching TV. A South Florida boy, but when he sings he takes you all the way from sea to shining sea.
12.
Tailspun 02:00
Hid underneath a black houndstooth jacket, the man who still holds up the loss. Down in his front left pocket, ounce of silver, ounce of sauce. Burnt toast and tea on the table, stress crackles on a plate and cup. He’ll leave it empty when he’s able, or else he will fill it up. The dog’s looking round the house for kibble, finding only empty plates and a saucer of potato crisps to nibble left by one of his good-time mates. It’s time for mean and various fun now that it’s all over and done. He’d never have lost her had she won. He’d not have so tailspun. Friday nights, he thinks about her and weekdays around nine and noon. And on Sundays and Saturday evenings, tries to meet her soon. There’s no point in watching any movies and sometimes it gets hard to read with the weight of such distractions, dishes and the dog to feed. The cold, silent air in the churchyard is the only way to clear his thoughts when he’s feeling blind and hopeless or just distracted and distraught. And when he’s feeling that other feeling, the kind that hurts as deep as love, that’s when he calls one of his good-time buddies to find another drug. It’s time for mean and various fun now that it’s all over and done. He’d never have lost her had she won. He’d not have so tailspun. He’d never have lost her had she won. He’d not have so tailspun.
13.
When asked the rancher said there’s danger in the heather thistle yonder but you’re the ranger and you can’t stand the rancher’s answer. Your left hand and your right want to discover despite the thorns that grab you as you wander. Despite the words that warn you from the crass cattle-seller. And what is he hiding in the creepers? as he talks himself deeper and deeper into trouble, the purposeful misleader, this hateful hoarder and harmful secret-keeper. And why is there a beast chained up here? It seems to me that something is corrupt here. This beast is not a buffalo nor steer, but unicorn. Snow-white bridle with a wish-granting horn. and immediately your fantasy will appear after you shed a selfish tear, after another shot of bourbon and a beer.
14.
One rung up the ladder of a sagging rope, and I’m paying a gambler to take my place, watching the walls run bright with phosphorescent paint with a tall one in the basement in the sunset state. On the big screen we’re following the pigskin game where every pass is out of range. In pursuit of the ends of our rainy days again. Wasn’t it a piece of cake? Wasn’t it a peaceful lake where we sunk down into our separate ways? I know that you still believe, and I know that you won’t deceive me, still the renegade. Orange sparks, jokes flew from the car with speed. Lacks and hopes drag along, frayed-- me knowing that you still believed I’d never leave, well that’s one of the jokes we made. And I won’t drive alone and I won’t fly away home. Well, that’s another one. Now I’m dragging chrome and I’m worrying a bone in the basement sun. Wasn’t it a piece of cake? Wasn’t it a peaceful lake where we sunk down into our separate ways? But I know that you still believe, and I know that you won’t deceive me.
15.
The Boys 00:54
After a proper Christian breakfast, somewhat lost in time, you attempt to scale the fence that one ought not to climb. And you run toward the future knowing only how things seem but refreshed to get the chance to dream. Mistakenly the boys try to follow you into the depth of your solitude. Making noise and raising hell, sending the bucket down the well filled with reviews. They’ll roam the countryside yelling “Where are you?” And return without a hope at all. In town, they will beg, steal and borrow, end up in handcuffs down at city hall. Maybe no one will ever find you. They don’t know how to trace your trail. And you don’t even see them walking behind you, as they endlessly succeed and fail.
16.
My Corolla 01:08
Right on Main Street Left of Birmingham Right on 285 Right on Charles Left on Woodland Left on Culver Right on Bellvue Right of Forest that’s the whole way back. You don’t need a phone, you’ve the Mapquest sheets, Fig Newtons in a knapsack. You said “Can’t you try to meet me half way?” and that’s how far I’m goin’. Now, I don’t know where you live, but I know where you stay. Am I wrong for knowin’? Well, I’m goin’ for a drive, winter of 2005. And it will be 2016 when I arrive. I know so much, I know so much. What a trip. Don’t I know it. I know so much, I know so much. What a trip. I know, I know it’s too much. So much for my Corolla and my baby teeth. I’m blowin’ into town like an old leaf.
17.
feeling like i was made just stupid enough to know how stupid i am,  and if i try to see it i can and if i try to see it i can well I’m lightening up and now I’m lighter than air and when i flail around i get a little scared now I’m hunkering down and I’m riding through town, painting it up with my dumb old stare I’m prepared to be arrested for messing it up but no one around seems to care and I’m convinced i was made just stupid enough to know how stupid i am,  and if i try to see it i can and if i try to see it i can i can because I’m not a committed man i can because I’m not a committed man and i think i was made just stupid enough to know how stupid i am,  I don’t belong to any land I’m not a committed man i don’t sing in any band... I’m not a committed man I’m not a serious fan... or a committed man I wear no wedding band... I’m not a committed man I don’t believe in any brand I’m not a committed man
18.
Two String 01:11
You can say everything you are on a two string guitar. You can say everything you are on a two string guitar. Show the world your idea of taste on a two string bass. You go places no one ever went around the festival tent. You go where no one has ever went walking round the festival tent. If some extra things get tossed, then some extra things get tossed. You got a sack of tomatoes, you got tomato sauce. And I’ll tell you how four strings became three, with no apology. I’ll tell you how four strings became three, they never gave an apology. Then three strings just became two. What to do. And if the second comes undone, then I guess you got the other one. You can say everything you are on a two string guitar. You can say everything you are on a two string guitar. Show the world your idea of taste on a two string bass.
19.
Squealing breaks in the morning-- the rooster’s crow. Where any of us are going, we’d like to know. There’s a chance I might get run over by you. There’s a chance I might win before you do. Then I’ll find out what I am, without caring who. Singing: I am your boyish man I am your boyish man Not all man, but all right. Buddy, can I get a light? I am your boyish man I am your boyish man Not all man, but all right. Buddy, can I get a light?
20.
Take Me In 00:57
I seem to find my home out here in nowhere after seeing things fall apart. But I hear you would be an Au Pair to the dejected heart. So take me in Give me a skin to live in. Give me fresh paper and pen, I’ll write an ode to you, my friend. Kindly raise me from the dead, keep me warm and clothed and fed. Send all your best to fill my head, forget all lies that were ever said. This I only ask, Give me one hearty task so I’ll forget all the work that I’ve done in vain, in jest, and in my only past. Please let me love until the days pass on and on. Please let me love until the days pass on and on.

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released December 9, 2019

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Julian Cartwright is a songwriter, instrumentalist, composer and arranger based in the Philadelphia area. Instagram @julian.cartwright.songs

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